I'm Back!!!

So I am back and unhappy with myself.  After a wonderful weekend and an Easter filled with yummy horrible foods, I find myself extremely bloated.  I know I ate to much and at the time I really enjoyed it.  Now I regret every little bit of it.  It's so bad that I am thinking of taking a laxative to "cleanse" myself.  But I promised I'd try not to do that again.

I am trying to get back on track with things.  I finally found a diet that I think I can live with and starting today I will be changing my life.  I know I've already said this many times before, but I really have to do something or else....  I just can't be what I once was before.

So I read this book:  Jackie Warners "This is Why You are Fat".    I thought it was really interesting.   She talks about how we can use certain supplements to help guide our metabolism to burn more efficiently.  After reading her book I decided to buy a good multi-vitamin, an amino acid supplement, some CLA, and Milk Thistle.  I am going to pair these daily with my calcium supplement, fish oil and my probiotic..... not to mention the daily birth control and thyroid  pill.  I know it sounds like a lot, but I can see how each and every one of these supplements can help.  So I am going to give it a shot.  I've been feeling really run down lately.  Sometimes I space out and sometimes I get these dizzy spells.  So hopefully with these changes in addition to the other ones I am going to talk about below will get me back on track.

So in addition to all these supplements, Jackie talks about eating clean all week M-F and paying close attention to the amount of sugar in food.  Less than 9grams a serving and your body shouldn't even register it. She wants you to eat 2 eggs a day and a serving of oatmeal every day as well in addition to fruits and vegetables throughout the day.  I am also supposed to only eat whole grains and carbs should be limited and used early in the day.  If you're able to do this throughout the week, then on Sat and Sunday I can have 2 cheat meals!  This part has me hooked!  If I can eat well all week and splurge a little on the weekend that would be okay right??  I plan to follow this as closely as possible and if I need something a little extra such as chocolate it'll be something limited and sugar free.  I think that's the only place I am going to mess up with.

Also I just bought a journal to help me keep track of my foods too.  Then of course I have to commit to working out.  My main source to work out is Tae Kwon Do...  During the week I know I can get there Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday....  On Wednesday I can go to the gym and Sunday too....  (I like to work out with my mommy so this is something I am pretty much doing so I can do it with her.)

So.......  sounds like a plan right?  Gosh I hope so.  I plan to get on the scale later in the week when I am less bloated.  Hopefully this change will  be something I can maintain and it won't be too hard.

Motivation....

I lack motivation most of the time.  It's something I need to come to terms with in order to succeed in my weight loss effort.  Whenever anything, and I mean anything comes up I use it as an excuse to not attend Tae Kwon Do or go to the gym.  Why is this?  Isn't my health more important?  I need to realize the difference between a real reason not to attend TKD and an excuse.  Today I vow to attend TKD without excuses.

I had a wonderful Valentine's Day yesterday!   Lot's a food though!   Yummy food, and it definitely wasn't good for me....  But it was a special occasion, and I promised myself I wouldn't beat myself up over it.  Today is a new day!    And I am the luckiest girl in the world to have the support and love from someone so wonderful!

Sundays....

Sometimes it seems like there is never enough time to get things done.  Here it is Sunday and I still have to grade a bunch of papers, work out and cook for Valentine's Day tomorrow.  It's already almost 3pm.  Why am I so lazy??  


I just have to keep my head up and trudge along.  Things are bound to look up right?  I can look forward to going to the gym, and stopping at Borders on the way home to buy a cook book.  Those are positive things.  I just need to keep thinking ahead.  

A little bit about me

I like to think I am a happy person.  I have a wonderful boyfriend who is overly supportive in everything. I have a nice little apartment with my cute little Chloe and Luna:

Luna is on the left:  She's a full bred Bangel.  Always looking for attention and playing with my hair ties.  Chloe is on the right.  She's a Yorkie!  I love her to death!

Each and every day I look forward to coming home and spending time with my cute ones.  They are just part of what brings joy to my life.  I also have a loving boyfriend whom I always joke with, telling him he's number 1 in my life, and the animals are a close number 2.  But he's been my support with everything I've gone through.  I know he'll support me in my journey.  


I currently have a Bather's degree in Education.  I am working at a Charter School as a ParaPro.  I love the community, and I hope everyday to one day get a classroom of my own.  (Though I REALLY NEED ONE THIS FALL)  


I have all the same problems normal people face:  Money Money Money.  Life is hard without a lot of it.  I love to shop and that's my pit fall (and eating).


Most people would wonder why I am struggling with weight loss.  I currently have a gym membership and I am a Brown Belt in Tae Kwon Do.  But the truth of the matter:  I have a hard time staying motivated.  After a long day at work. sometimes I'd rather crash on the couch, instead of going to class.  I truly believe if I can just get my but to classes and the gym, I'll be fine.  But  I just need the motivation to get there.  I am hoping this will be it.  


Today to start my journey, I am not only going to the gym with my cutie, but I am making a pit stop at the book store.  I need to find a cookbook that allows a lot of variety.  Especially the desert areas.  I have  a horrible sweet tooth, and I need something to help with that.  


So, here we go...................................

Week 1 Weight In

Week 1

Weight: 

199.4 lbs

Muscle: 30.5

Bone:  2.1

Fat:  45.1

Water:  42.9

I don't look happy in these pictures... AND I don't feel happy either.  Part of me is nervous for posting pictures of myself via the internet.  But I need to be held accountable.  

-I will weigh in each week and update this!

-I will take new pictures each month and post them.

-I WILL EAT HEALTHY AND EXERCISE TO BEAT THIS!